(CNN) – Zainab’s eyes are hazel, and a sliver of olive skin peeks from the stretchy turquoise scarf wrapped tightly around her face. Over her shoulder is an insulated bag with the word “Lunch” on it that she is using as a purse. Her nails are lacquered red, the tips just starting to chip. And on her feet are leopard-print flip-flops. I imagine Zainab before ISIS as a confident teenager, full of verve. But now, in her eyes, I see grief and a girl beaten down before even entering adulthood.